i am so blessed to have coltons music in my life. he has gotten me through the toughest of times. like right now. i am very angry with my mom and his song "let them see you" has just helped me calm down. and he always makes me feel better, no matter how sick i feel. he is just so great. i cant wait to meet him next week at his concert. i am going to go up to him, hug him and tell him (that he smells good, because everyone says he does) thank you for being you. i am not even joking about this. i am going to show him how much he means to me and how much his faith is Christ and his music has impacted me. he is just so inspirational. its sometimes hard to believe how amazing and inspirational he is. i am not kidding, everytime i am angry (which, sadly, is quite often) i listen to his music, whether it be You Are or Shelter, or his new album. it always makes me want to hug and say im sorry to the person who i am angry or frustrated at. its just so amazing. and i am going to show colton in anyway i can that i have been changed since he sang "Everything" on Idol. i thought at first at freak, but now i realize that i dont care what everyone else thinks about him, he is the best singer and person in the world. but it is a shame he doesnt know i exist. but not for long :) i am going to try to keep in touch with him. i am going to ask him if he would like to help me get closer to Christ (because i seriously need help) and better in my music. even though my friends and parents have told me he's probably going to say he cant give out any personal info, and that he's going to ask for my twitter (which i dont have), i still have faith that he's going to be the loving, amazing person i know him to be and see what he can do to keep in touch. i am writing him a letter telling him that if he choses to text me or skype me or anything like that, that i would never give out his info. i believe it is wrong to give out a celebs personal info without permission. but none of my friends are Messengers, so theres not really a problem about me sharing it with anyone. and if any of my friends become Messengers and try to squeeze his info out of me, i would definetly tell them i promised not to tell anyone. then again, if he says no he cant give out any info without getting to know me better, i would be crushed and i would have to wait until i got a twitter and got to talk to him again. and y'all probably think im a dreamer (but im not the only one lol) but im serious. i not a crazed fan. i dont scream at every tweet (though i was very excited when he said he was signed on with Sparrow Records) he posts, and i will not scream when i meet him (just grinning from ear to ear). i just want to be a better musican and Christian, and since he is my role model, i have chosen him to ask to help me. even though i havent met him yet, i feel like i could ask him anything. any question about Christ or music, i would totally turn to him. and he would be my source of advice. and i know its all crazy, but i have strong faith it will all work out fine. i have this feeling inside of me (most likely God) thats telling me "everything will work out and Colton will help you out with your walk with Me.". so yeah, i have faith that ill be able to keep in touch with Colton. and i have faith that even though he is extremely busy, he will sometimes have time to help me with my issues. but anyways, thanks so much for listening to my rant about my love of Colton (but like a brother love, not a crush love). see you guys in Heaven! <3
